and they say 2006 isn't all that...

For those born in the year of Monkey
I will place this year at 8 on a scale of 1-10 and this year hold a promise of prosperity and happiness. Your social life will be active and you will develop new relationships and contacts. April, August and December will be the high points in this year. You may monkey with the tiger and this may bring a new challenge in your life. (www.hindustantimes.com)

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mysterious

snatch letters
whisper secrets
share a smile or two
you tell me sweet nothings
that make me smile and blush
besos muneca

shared stories
cameos on webcams
you are carinoso
yet speak of romance like it was nil
cynical, you and i

tell me carino
why do you utter
these words
to make me melt?
you are too young to
settle down
i am too cynical
to believe you

though your words
give me comfort
and your empty promises
make me smile
all the same
we continue to dance

night owl thoughts

I see you. Invisible to the world but not to me.

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The night is my escape into what i used to be. Here i can rant, and write and search and create. In this hour i can be myself. I have become once again the creature of the night.

I wonder if people in the 19th century had problems with insomnia.How did they deal with it without all that technology? Hmmm.

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I'm reminded of the movie CLOSER. God. I hate that movie for the sole reason that it made me feel emotions i do not want to feel again.

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pakay

Hindi ako kumuha ng medicine kasi ayoko maging doktor.

Hindi ako nag-Law kasi marami nang abogado sa mundo. Ayoko maging isa pang statistic.

Hindi ko pinasok ang sining dahil "in" sya.

Alam ko na ang pera ay nasa pagiging doktor at pagiging abogado. Pero hindi ko pinasok ito dahil ayoko. Ayoko maging isang tao na ang tanging dahilan lang sa trabaho ay pera. Hindi ako pinalaki na ang halaga ng buhay ay nasa pera.

Ang halaga ng buhay ay sa pagiging totoo sa iyong sarili.

worth reading

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS
ni Paolo Manalo

Di na iinom
Ng tubig, kakain na lang ng yelo.

Magke-care-giver in four gives.
Mangfa-five-six ng nang-wa-one-two-three.
Manghe-hello ng call center rep.
Manggu-good time sa bad trip.

Magpaparebond, magpapaputi
Ng uwak at isasali ito sa Starstruck.
Mananalo pagkat walang talent,
Mataas lang ang mga pangarap.

Sa wrong timing, sasalisi.
Sa mga bulag magpapapitik.
Magpapasipa sa pilay,
Mananabunot ng kalbo.
Magpapa-land ng flying kiss
Sa iyong pisngi, sabay daplis.

Hindi na, di na talaga!
Past tense na ang love:
Minahal kasi, expensive na.

Si, senor!

You Should Learn Spanish

For you, learning a language is about career advancement and communication. Knowing Spanish will bring you tons of possiblities for jobs and travel. Bárbaro!

What Language Should You Learn?

de-frag

This title just invites a "de frag and the princess" joke. *sigh*

Been debugging my computer for the past few hours. Argh. I hate dem malwares. Argh. No amount of housecalls and anti-virus can seem to get rid of them. Shit. Somebody help me out here.

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I have a terrible backhand but my forehand is pretty good, according to my instructor. Oh well, at leasti have good form. hahaha. Maybe i can finally play. Tennis is fun. Then again, it's only fun when you have somebody else to play with.

No wonder i'm not much into contact sports. You're too dependent on somebody else to have fun.

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Today i made stickers. Yey! i can finally pollute ILoilo with lotsa urban faerie stuff. Look out world! :-D For free stickers/postcards, email me yer snail mail address. :-) cheers!!!

The start of the year....

It's officially the start of the new year for working people. For me, let's just say it's another day in strangeland. I still can't get used to the idea of being home. Literally.

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New Year's was uneventful. Dinner with family, tv watching by the time the fireworks were done. Stayed up till 5am this time. My body clock will never function the same way again. Spent the time texting acquaintances and good friends. Hit and miss with the signal here. *haaay*

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Listening to good ole' OPM makes one melancholy about the past. Eheads, you rock, as always.

At least i've crossed out one item off my list. :-) Next....

reunion

reunion
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

some galtalk, coffee/dinner, a night out and lotsa laughs and reminscing. Thanks for another interesting night girls! :-) Kudos to the gals who made this possible!

year end me-me

year-ender me-me (thanks kitty!)

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
* chronicle my wanderlusting (as in, kina-reer!)
* visit the states (and not just one, mind u!)
* travel alone
* spend time with my grandma
* get published in LA!
* get to know and spend time with an ex and his family


2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I have a list for 2006…. And hell yeah, I’m keeping it!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yep. An aunt and some close friends (congrats, tuwa and pao!)

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Acquaintances and a few good people. Rest in Peace….

5. What countries did you visit?
The US. (see previous posts where I was)

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
a high paying job and more travelling! :-)

7. What dates from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The months of October and November. That’s when I traveled and got to visit the East Coast, saw friends, met up with old loves and yes, had a FABULOUS time amidst tears, disappointments, and lotsa moolah spending.


8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Learning and still learning. Loving.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not getting enough sleep.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Severe depression. Thank goodness for friends, writing and the postal service!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
A ticket to New York.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Lotsa people! Kudos to the crew of the West Coast --- River, Gel, Ghenier, Jeff, Harold, Don, Abie, BJ, Dave, Josol, Jason, the Funside gang, my cuzins Justin, Bobby, Jackie, Rico for showing me a grand time…. and the East Coast peeps --- Melissa and her sis Lani, Mitzi, Dave, Osbourne, Hazel, Cha, Tomoko, Lucy, Geraldo, Alvin and sweet Babar :-) (to those whose names I forgot, thank you too…)

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
*pass*

14. Where did most of your money go?
Kape.inom.lakwatsa.banko.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Visiting New York.

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
- The Way You Look Tonight (classic Ella Fitzgerald version!)
- Mr. Brightside – The Killers
- Chewing Gum – Annie’s Anniemal
- Hung Up –Madonna’s Confessions on the Dance Floor
- Akin Ka Na Lang - Itchyworms’ Noon Time Show
(this is the best album na OPM so far)

17. Compared to this time last year, you are:
cynical.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I wish I had more time to travel. I also wish I took more care of my heart.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Worrying.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Spent it with my family. All by ourselves (my dad was sick eh) it was a good Christmas tho

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
I wish!

23. How many one-night stands?
*pass*

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Family Guy, Scrubs, House, Sex and The City reruns, Whose Line is It Anyway?

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Sadly…but hate is such a strong word….

26. What was the best book you read?
How to be Good by Nick Hornby

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
The Killers and Brit Rock… Annie…. Hip Underground bars in New York’s East Village

28. What did you want and get?
I wanted to travel and I was able to travel.
I wanted to see my ex and I did.
I wanted to know the meaning of life. I still don’t know it.
Two out of three isn’t bad. 

29. What did you want and not get?
How to course through my life without getting hurt.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
RENT the Movie.

31. What did you do on your birthday. And how old were you?
painted pots with my cousin and aunt. Talked to my ex’s grandma. Went out with my cousin in Hollywood and Highlands for a night of fun. EARLY breakfast at an all-night diner later on. Great way to spend my 25th year!

32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
loads and loads of moolah to spend. More time in New York.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Style meets substance.

34. What kept you sane?
Writing….letters, postcards,emails. Etc. Phone calls to friends, designing. Coffee and yosi. Good conversations and lotsa ranting. Great friends.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Steven Strait (he looks like the guy I’m crushing on)

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Political instability in the Philippines.

37. Who did you miss?
my family. Kittykat, Mary, Jac, the peeps from college. Some more people.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Can’t really say. This year was about re-connections.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
”In a mad world, only the mad are sane” – Akira Kurosawa
Tama si Kits ---“Sex isn’t life. But life’s impossible without it.”

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
”alone again, naturally.“ 

funkygirl and groovychick

funkygirl and groovychick
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

Reunited!??!!! pic taken last time we were drunk (hahaha) --- specifically, a few weeks ago.

To a friendship that will outlast petty sh*t, catfights (meeow!), guyz and boy problems, and other distractions in life! Long live kitty+bunnie forever :-)

salamat sa iyong pag-intindi at sa iyong pagiging tunay na kaibigan. :-)

sweet misery

You wake up to the heat. For the past few hours, the heat is just exhausting. You wonder if this is another sign of the apocalypse.

You want to douse yourself with cold water real bad.

You drown yourself in music yet the OPMs you play only reminds you of your loss. The sweet sentimentality just adds to the melancholy you can't overcome. What did they say about losing the one you love?

Time travel seems farfetched, but you wish it so dearly right now.

*blink*

Walking through the mall --- Cellphones are everywhere yet there's no one to call. The place looks busy but you know nobody's buying. Why then is there a rush?

You look around to try to recognize a familiar face, yet sadly there is none. How bizaare it is to call this place home but you know no one. You are the outsider. You see things from an observer's view, and you can do nothing but sigh.

Dinner with a good friend. He provides the familiarity you seek (aside from family of course) and you welcome the settling calm. The conversation is a bit clumsy, but you don't feel any unease. The company you seek is here. How you wish everything is as simple as his progression in life. Then again, nothing is simple.

Hush, your mind reprimands. Of course it is. All you need is direction. Somebody give me a clue.

The night beckons you to be imaginative. You try and try but you end up short. What is it about provincial air that makes you think twice about things?

Unless you get out, you will become a statistic. Welcome to the land of stereotypes, where creativity is nil and your imagination runs dry.

10 things

10 things that bring me joy (tagged by kittykat)

[01] great friendships
[02] good coffee and conversations
[03] special times with loved ones
[04] love letters, postcards, mushy souvenirs
[05] family moments
[06] travels, road trips and (mis)adventures
[07] time alone with a really good book
[08] music trippin’
[09] great loves
[10] the future


ytagged!

cheers, tears and a lotta breakage

Happy christmas to the peeps.

A lot of love, a few tears shed, and yes, some wistfulness has made my christmas --- it's always good to know that amidst all the melodrama you can be assured of the love that comes from true friendship.

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sometimes surprises come in small packages. In this case, really sweet messages coming from nowhere. Thank you!

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New year is so close... i wonder if i'll have enough time to start my plans...

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To everybody whose numbers i don't have (and whose messages i haven't had the chance to return) Merry christmas to you and your family!

And this is where it all begins...

and this is where it all begins...
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

In celebration of friendships and the new year, i look back to some of the cool ones i've managed to keep all these years despite time, weird scenarios, petty fights and all that jazz. Cheers to the trio that made it through all this... in good times and bad, in drinking and binging, in great loves and terrible heartaches, we are still here sonic and kittee... :-)

cleaning the closet

I found your postcard today.

Your words are written so beautifully, and even as I read it I was close to tears. You always had that effect on me. I wonder if you still have this in you.

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Last hurrahs earlier this a.m. Bibingcrepes, some chilling at St. Loius, last-minute rundowns and hellos at Big Sky. The conversation was great, and the mood was light. Despite my lack of sleep I mingled. Connections, small world! I feel like the world is conspiring and trying to tell me something… haunts from the past? I hear new names, find new secrets. It’s interesting how things connect…

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I saw your pic and I smile. I wonder how you would feel if I sent it to you. Would you miss me like I miss you?

catching up

The past is literally haunting me.

Everywhere i go i see pieces of you. Every nook and cranny, every haunt we went to, every person we connected with. It's harder to deal with your ghost that way.

I realize every so often why i left.

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Drinks with gal pals makes the singleton life a lot more bearable. Free flowing beer, lovely cocktails. The room starts to spin slowly. I love this heady feeling. It keeps the thoughts at bay.

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The new year beckons. I'll start living again by then. Happy holidays y'all.

christmas week

Tis the season for rushed shopping, heavy traffic (isn't that always the case?) and yes, the commercialism that has become the holiday spirit.

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The other day:

Spent the day chilling at Makati, reconnecting with old contacts. Had a bitchfest with cohort Mary amidst the Landmark goods --- apparently, SM isn't the one who has it all --- Landmark has some surprisingly good (and BAD) goods that's just worth poring over.

Dinner with Nons at his apartment for some tuna and tomato linguine. Yummy! Had fun learning the rudiments of poker (look out world! Haha!) Chilled at Fiamma later on, mingling with the beautiful people of Manila. Twas crowded, brightly lit and yes, heady. I wonder how people do this thing every week.

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Yesterday:

Not all plans really go through. Last minute changes resulted to some pretty interesting scenarios, like walking the streets of Makati, downing about 3-4 coffees, hailing a cab in vain for two hours, listening to a crappy band, eating at mini stop in the early a.m. (and bumping into old acquaintances) and chilling at Big Sky till the sun came up. And i thought my night was gonna ba wasted. Made new friends though. Looking forward to the xmas party...

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Today:

The endless wait continues. What supposed to be was lunch is now turning out to be an early dinner. I am tired of waiting. Also, my flight got bumped off and now i'm stranded in the metro till xmas day. Argh. This is turning out to be some christmas week. Luckily i will be adopted on christmas eve by good friend Jackie and her family (yey!) At least there's still something good about this holiday...

heat wave

I never really got around to walking around the metro, and today i realize there is a reason why i don't. It is soooo BLOODY HOT.

Still, the nuances of not being able to get a cab is why i had to walk 3 blocks to the MRT. Haay. It's really annoying the hell out of me why there are not decent pavements along the roads to encourage people to walk (Makati is excluded of course, though i wish they had more of that). The ride to Makati is less than pleasant, with people from all walks of life coming in and out of the train, bringing with them the smells and odors that when combined is the wors thing your nose can ever sniff.

Note: I have had my share of bizaare rides, and i do not want to come off as a snotty botch, but hell, it was REALLY SMELLY earlier, and the fact that people are too damn close to each other just irritates the hell out of me.

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I'm not much of a Makati fan, but i do appreciate their long shaded walkways and very efficient a/cs. Plus, they have a lot of bookstores which i can lose myself in and not worry about where to "park".

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I am lost in the scheming of moolah-making. Argh. I really wish i can do something productive and can give me some decent spending money. Lord, you know what i want!
:-P

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On a lighter note, kudos to Jac and Zap for the wonderful day yesterday! I truly enjoyed myself, despite the setback of not getting any sleep prior to them picking me up for Tagaytay. I love the long drive, the fab brunch at Antonio's (wonderful place, Jac, we really must go there again!), the wonderful (and very sweet, very touching) gift and of course, the endless picture-taking. :-) Will post them pics up soon, not to worry!

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